The Wanted Series_ Complete Box SetBy: Kelly Elliott
Seven Years Old
I stood crying against the wall. Mommy was acting weird again and it was scaring me. This is how she acts when she drinks the bad stuff that Jefferson calls beer. I just want to run and get away before she sees me again and yells. She said she was going to make me cookies and that we would go to the park to swing on the swings. I was so happy thinking about how much fun we would have.
Mommy had been mad ever since her friend called. She told me we were not going to the park today because she was feeling sad and needed a drink.
“You would not have fun at the park Ellie anyway.” But I knew I would especially because I loved the swings at school. I wish Jefferson was home; my tummy hurts so bad, and I’m so hungry.
Then she screamed out my name…. “Ellie!”
I jumped and quickly wiped the tears away. If she saw me crying she would just get mad at me again. I walked up to her very slowly.
She was sitting at the kitchen table with her face in her hands. “Y-yes Mommy?” She looked up at me and frowned. I know who she is thinking of when she looks at me that way. She tells me all the time I have his eyes. Jefferson says my eyes are blue like the sky.
Mommy has pretty dark brown hair. My hair is much lighter than mommy’s. Jefferson likes to brush my hair and always tells me how pretty I am and that I am a princess. He said some day my prince will come and save me and take me away from this bad place. Mommy never tells me I am pretty, she just tells me I look like my daddy. She hates my daddy.
“Ellie, Ellie, Ellie.” She said her l’s really funny, like she was having a hard time saying them.
“Do you know that you will never be wanted? No one will ever love you, just like I have never been loved. No man will ever really want you. You need to know that now. I wish someone would have told me that; fuck it would have saved me a lot of pain.”
Mommy was still talking funny. Did she not want me anymore?
“Mommy, I’m sorry for whatever I did. Please don’t be mad at me. Please want me mommy!” I cried out. She just started to laugh and then she put her head back in her hands and told me to get out of her sight. I had a funny feeling in my chest and my tummy. Why was it so hard for me to breathe? I walked over to the corner in the kitchen and sat down.
When will Jefferson get home? I just want Jefferson……I need Jefferson.
“You will never be wanted by anyone……remember that Ellie darlin’, remember that”……
Nine Years Later
Bryce had brought me to my favorite pizza shop for my sixteenth birthday, and I was so excited. We’d been dating for four months now and he was just so sweet, he only ever kissed me and never tried to take it further which was so nice. He said he loved how innocent I was.
While we waited for our pizza I excused myself and went to the restroom. I was standing at the sink when a girl with beautiful blonde hair walked in. I instantly recognized her from school. I was pretty sure she was in eleventh grade like Bryce.
I smiled as she walked up to me. She returned my smile with a sad smile and seemed nervous.
“Ellie Johnson right?”
“Yes, I’m sorry, I recognize you but I can’t place your name.”
“That’s okay; I wouldn’t really expect you to know who I am Ellie. My name is Denise Watkins.”
Oh, I’ve heard of this girl. Ari said she was easy and that every guy with a working penis had fucked her.
“Ellie, I really like you. I mean I like how sweet and kind you are to everyone. I wish I could be more like you.”
WHAT? Where the hell did that coming from?
“Um, thank you Denise, that’s very sweet of you to say that.”
“Ellie, I’m going to cut to the chase here. Do you know where Bryce was last night? I only ask because I think you deserve the truth.”
I shook my head yes. I had a very bad feeling about where this was going.
My mother’s words popped into my head.
You will never be wanted by anyone……..
“Yes, he was um, he was at a study group at Melissa’s house last night.”
Denise looked sad. Her eyes filled with tears and she looked away from me.
“No he wasn’t Ellie.”
“How do you know that?”
She lowered her head, and I could see the tears falling from her eyes. Oh holy hell.
“I know because he was fucking me in the backseat of his car last night.”
I just stood there….stunned. I couldn’t believe it. This was not happening to me. I thought he was different!
Oh my God……I felt like I was going to be sick.
“Why are you telling me this?”
“I didn’t want to tell you but I really like you and you’re so innocent and that fucker does not deserve to have you on his arm like some trophy while he is going behind your back and fucking everything with a pussy. I’m sorry Ellie. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I hope that you can forgive me some day.”